6 months

First we will start with the fun stuff! We are now about 6 months pregnant! I cannot believe how fast it's going by this time. With Landon I was so impatient and could not wait for it to be over. I hated being pregnant. Funny, this pregnancy has been MUCH more difficult, but I've been enjoying it soooo much more. It's totally just my mindset, but I'm really loving being pregnant this time :) I'm still sick off an on. Lately just once or twice a week. But still not my favorite. haha. I've gained 11 lbs so far. I figured it out and if I can only gain a lb a week (YA RIGHT!) from here on out then I'd gain 25. Don't think that'll happen. But a girl can hope and dream right? haha.

I've been having very vivid dreams of our upcoming birth. They've been so real I can almost feel them. I think it's all the reading and preparation I've been going through to get ready for this VBAC. But I'm loving how much I feel like my head is in the game! I don't remember the last time I wanted something this badly. It's not just the VBAC that I want. It's the entire birth scenario. I feel like I was cheated of this last time. Being induced, getting and epidural, and then ultimately getting a C-section were all things that cheated me of this crazy and beautiful birthing experience. You may be thinking, she is crazy. Birth is NOT beautiful. But I'm a doula! I've been to births and I'm telling you, they are gorgeous. They are euphoric! It is such a beautiful thing to watch as mom and baby fall in love while he's laying on her chest and cooing and feeling so warm and happy again. I want that! I was strapped to a table last time and hardly even saw Landon for the first hour! I want need this VBAC experience. I want to know that I CAN do it (I already know I can, but need to prove it). I want to show others that there IS another way. And it might even be better! I can't wait to do this. I'm really hoping that I'm successful, that I can prevent interventions as much as humanly possible, and that I can do this all naturally! I'm so nervous and excited as we are getting closer and closer to the end of our journey. :)